Nothing was working. I forgot everything I'd learned. I was clunky in the water. My breathing was out of wack. I wanted to quit. I considered cancelling my upcoming lesson due to my regress rather than progress. The thought of actually completing the (open-water Atlantic Ocean) swim part of this race became more and more of a pipe dream in my head. And then it hit me.
This revealed my blind spot. Her question to me was about progress, but all I was focused on was my end goals and the way in which I was straying from plan. Anything outside of my plan meant I wasn’t progressing, resulting in all those weighted shoulds feeling hella heavy.